A Question of Chemisty

So Tuesday evening, I decided it would be best to see TR37 in person.? I simply wanted to get a vibe on the situation.? We chose to go to Starbucks in Plano.? It wasn’t a busy one, but it was quiet enough for a private conversation over a cup of java.? When I arrived, I walked up to her, gave her a kiss and a hug.? We found a quiet corner to sit and talk.? Our conversation wasn’t a deep one.? We started talking about work and kids.? That’s always a middle of the road conversation.? But suddenly the conversation took a?turn.? We began to discuss dating and relationship issues.? coffee TR37 made a statement that?I found to be quite interesting.? “I have issues, but my exes wouldn’t be able to say what they are.”? Now I feel, if you’re in a relationship and you don’t know?your?partner’s issues, pet peeves, likes or dislikes, that you don’t have a true relationship.? But it seemed that through out the discussion, she was very disconnected from me.? We were touching hands, and I rested my hand on her leg during the the conversation.? But when I questioned her about how well you would know someone you’re in a relationship with, she became defensive.? She expressed to me that it seemed like I had changed in the last 24 hours, as if we were just platonic friends sharing a cup of coffee.? I did try to explain to her, the last 24 hours made me take a step back emotionally.? And I am proceeding with caution.? Well, that wasn’t settling with TR37.? She leaned towards me, and said, ‘what do you want from me?’? I told her it was the same thing I wanted from her previously.? She asked me the same question 4 more times, with the same response from me.? She then told me, she was tired of apologizing for the mix up with her friend, it wasn’t her playing games with me, and she feels as if I’m picking this situation to death.? I didn’t have a chance to express my feelings.? She stormed out of Starbucks and left me there alone!

I some how knew that I did the right thing.? I tried to?be social?her and see what her physical response to the whole situation.? Her body language told me she had something? When I arrived home, I logged into the dating site, and the mystery profile had been deleted.? So deep down inside, I have no regrets with the results of the night.? I have decided, that she could be a ‘on demand’ friend.? That would be a someone who I can go out with sometimes, and have fun without being emotionally involved.? And if I decide to be sexual with her, it will be a mutually satisfying experience.

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