Several readers have been asking questions regarding my obvious compulsive dating habits and my desire to find a long term relationship.  My behavior seems to be a total conflict.  Well for me to answer this I’ll have to give you a little insight on how I got to this point.  How did I get here emotionally?  It has only been the last few years that I’ve dated with the regularity that you are reading about.  About 10 years ago, I had a monogamous relationship with a JS40.  JS40 was only 30 years old at the time.  She’s 5′5″ tall, brunette, and green eyes.  She was divorced with 2 children.  She’s never dated black men before.  We started out as friends, but it developed into more.  She had a hard time dealing with her family when they found out about me.  This relationship ended when she moved to Seattle.  I was shocked.  But I dealt with it and moved on.  We’ve maintained a strong friendship over the years.  Every now and then we see each other for a romantic weekend.  I know that’s probably not healthy emotionally, but it sure is fun.

I was also emotionally involved with VD35.  We spent 2 years together.  She is a 5′8″ brunette, with green eyes, and medium build.  She has two bi-racial children also.  She and I lived together.  We shared a lot of great memories.  We were inseparable for most of that time.  She and I broke up with I started one of my businesses.  She was very demanding and controlling of the amount of time I spent with her.  Our break up wasn’t pleasant, to say the least.  I haven’t seen her or heard from her since I moved out. 

Then there was the one that got away.  The one that set me into a tailspin was TW42.  She was newly divorced with 2 teenage children.  She was nothing less than gorgeous.  She’s 5′5″ tall, brown hair, blue eyes, and petite.  She was new to dating interracial.  TW42 is a college graduate, socially active, business minded, and great conversationalist.  We met in April on a blind date.   The date was for drinks, but it ended 8 hours later.  I took her to dinner, dancing, and to listen to a live band.  We had a instant connection.  Over the next couple months we met for dinner several times.  I knew right away that she could be the one.  I was prepared to dismiss all other romantic interests.  It wasn’t until November when we both agreed to pursue with a serious relationship.  I’ll never forget we had a late lunch date.  She expressed to me that she wanted to be closer to me, wanting to be emotionally involved with me.  Her exact words were, “I won’t break your heart, please trust me with your heart.”  My heart skipped a beat.  A few days later, I invited her over and cooked her a home cooked dinner.  Yes, I can cook!  For all those wondering what I cooked - Cesar Salad, Baked Pork Chops, Wild Rice, Asparagus, and Kalua Cake for desert.  We made plans for me to meet her children.  The one problem was.  When the ex-husband found out she was dating a black man, he freaked!  Long story short…. we broke up and a few weeks later they attempted to reconcile their 20 year relationship.  How could I compete with that?  I’m still trying to figure that one out myself.   

I’m sure you can see why I’m skeptical.  Being the go to guy is fun, but it does have consequences also.  Right now, I want to enjoy myself and all my hedonists desires until I find the woman I’m looking for. 

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