Well it finally happened.? I finally gave in. TR37 has returned.? For all of you that don’t know who TR37 is, she is from my past.? Our relationship started in?Febuary 2008 and ended abruptly and quickly.? Just like a gasoline induced fire, it burned quick and fast.? She?stop calling me,?stop emailing me and even ?she removed me from her myspace.? Since then, we didn’t speak very much until the last couple weeks.? I was shocked that she still had my contact information to message me.? I assumed that we would just be on friendly terms.? You know the type that says all the politically right stuff.. How’s the kids, Happy Holidays, Happy Birthday and etc.? Initially it started out that way.??Some how it progressed a bit further day by day.? She emailed me my horoscope every morning.? She?asked me about my social and dating life.? She even suggested that we go out for drinks after work.? I was a bit reluctant, but?I was also open to the idea.? Before?I realized?we began discussing some of the good things of our short lived relationship.? Now from my previous experiences with her, I do remember our physical chemistry.? I remember our conversations and I even remember the last?time I saw her.?
Last night I?finally invited?TR37 to come over?for a glass of wine.? That was one common thing that we shared.? We both enjoy wine.??She enjoys white wine and I like red wine.? She warned me that she had gained weight.? I wasn’t worried.? I 
know that she runs almost daily and stays in great physical?condition.? When she arrived, she was wearing her medical scrubs.? Blue and pink.? She looked?as good as I remember.??She calls herself fat, but?it’s only 10 extra pounds.? She still has those beautiful brown eyes and great smile.? We hugged and kissed.? We both admitted that we missed each other.? I even admitted that I thought I would never see her again.? It was strange…very strange.? It felt like we never stopped seeing each other.? We both had a glass of wine and began to catch up.? Then the awkward pause came.? So we conquered the pink elephant in the room.? I told her that if we never stopped seeing each other we would probably be in relationship.? Of course she disagreed.? If she agreed with me, she would have to admit to making a mistake 5 months ago.? And if you know TR37, she hates to admit when she’s wrong.? It wasn’t a big issue, I decided there are better things to worry about than who is right or wrong.? Now after having 2 glasses of wine, we practically exploded.? The sexual tension was waiting for it’s release.? TR37 and I have always been very passionate lovers.? This time was no different from any other time.? She experienced all 5 signs of good sex.? I’m sure I experienced a couple of those also.? This is the type of night that usually happens in movies.? I felt a sense of comfort tonight.? I’m not sure why, and I don’t really care.?
TR37 made it clear to me that she holds no expectations this time.? She mentioned that she wanted more from me previously.? I just felt she wanted too much too soon.? Some how she maintained me in her thoughts and memory for the last few months.? By way of our last conversation, I assumed that I was long forgotten.? I now know it was the exact opposite.? She’s never met anyone like me before.? She’s never met someone who wasn’t in a rush to be in a relationship with her.? I had to let her know the importance of me choosing the best relationship for me.? She now understands that I’d rather be alone that to be with the wrong person.? She promised that she will let things take their natural progression and not attempt to force me into a relationship.? I can only wait to see if her actions match up to her words.?
Is it normal for?a ex?to return to confuse?YOUR present dating choices?? Is she just coming back for a night or two of sexual bliss?? Is she really going to be different from before???
The real dilemma is starting to brew like a August hurricane.? It’s the choice between KT35 & TR37.? So once again, my life is not waiting for the storm to pass, but learning to dance in the rain.
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